i wish our last conversation wasn’t actually our last
this isn’t the ending i ever imagined for you, Teh. you told me you wanted to get better, remember? so honestly, a part of me still can’t believe this is where your story ends. but it’s okay.. Allah loves you more, and at least now you don’t have to be in pain anymore.
i’ve always used dorothea for my friends, but somehow, i never realized how much this song was actually about us. now every single line hits differently. it feels like the whole song is me talking to you.
thank you for being the one person who made me excited to come to family gatherings again. you probably never realized how much that meant to me. and i’m sorry for all the misunderstandings between us. i guess that whole thing taught me a big lesson:
sometimes you really have to put your ego aside, especially when it comes to people you love.
Teh, when you’re there, tell Allah everything, okay? every story you ever told me, every little thing you were scared to say, every thought that kept you up at night.. tell Him all of it. you don’t have to be scared anymore. you can finally talk about everything without holding anything back.
i’ll keep praying that Allah puts you in the most beautiful place, with the best of His love and mercy.
i wish i had more time with you. i wish our last conversation wasn’t actually our last.
but i guess this is goodbye for now.
see you again someday, Teh.
i’m gonna miss you more than you’ll ever know
i wish our last conversation wasn’t actually our last