2019年12月6日
理查德·费曼（Richard Feynman）是大名鼎鼎的美国理论物理学家，他被誉为爱因斯坦之后最睿智的理论物理学家。
费曼与爱妻艾琳·格林鲍姆（Arline Greenbaum）婚姻持续的时间只有4年。婚后仅仅三年，他深爱的妻子艾琳就因肺结核病而告别人世…
1946年10月17日，费曼为已离世一年的艾琳写下一封书信，表达自己对她刻骨铭心的爱恋和不能自已的悲伤。
这封信一直保留到费曼去世后才被拆封，他在信尾以自己一贯的幽默方式令人心碎地写道：“请原谅我没有把这封信寄出，只因为我不知道你的新地址。”
这封尘封已久的思念，由美国演员奥斯卡·伊萨克（Oscar Issac）现场朗诵传递。读到书信的结尾，Oscar眼角泛着泪光，原文字字透露出坚定不移的深情太戳心！
费曼书信：我爱我太太来自乐活英伦00:0003:35
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October17, 1946
1946年10月17日
D’Arline,
亲爱的艾琳：
I adore you, sweetheart.I know how much you like to hear that — but I don't only write it because you like it — I write it because it makes me warm all over inside to write it to you.
我太爱你了，我的甜心。我知道你最爱听这句话，但我写下这句话不是只为了迎合你，而是因为一想到这句话，我都会浑身热血沸腾。
It is such a terribly long time since I last wrote to you — almost two years but I know you'll excuse me because you understand how I am, stubborn and realistic; and I thought there was no sense to writing.
距我上次写信给你已经过去太久太久，差不多快两年了吧。但我想你会原谅我的，因为你懂我的性格，我太固执，也太实际；我以前觉得写信没有任何实际意义。
But now I know my darling wife that it is right to do what I have delayed in doing, and that I have done so much in the past. I want to tell you I love you. I want to love you. I always will love you.
但现在我懂了，我亲爱的太太，捡拾起这件一直没做的事情绝对是正确的决定，我过去也曾写得那样频繁。我想告诉你我爱你，我想要好好爱你，我会永远爱你。
I find it hard to understand in my mind what it means to love you after you are dead — but I still want to comfort and take care of you — and I want you to love me and care for me. I want to have problems to discuss with you — I want to do little projects with you. I never thought until just now that we can do that. What should we do. We started to learn to make clothes together — or learn Chinese — or getting a movie projector. Can't I do something now? No. I am alone without you and you were the "idea-woman" and general instigator of all our wild adventures.
其实我也很费解，在你离世后还这样爱着你到底意味着什么，可我还是想安慰并且照顾好你，我也希望你爱着我，也关心我。遇到问题时我想找你商量，想跟你一起做些生活中的小事。直到最近我才明白，我们能一起做的事情有那么多。那咱俩做些什么呢？我们开始一起学做衣服，或是学学中文，又或是找一个投影仪来放电影。我自己现在就不能做这些事吗？不行，没有你的我很孤单，你是我们所有野外探险的“点子狂人”，也是冒险活动的总指挥。
When you were sick you worried because you could not give me something that you wanted to and thought I needed. You needn’t have worried. Just as I told you then there was no real need because I loved you in so many ways so much. And now it is clearly even more true — you can give me nothing now yet I love you so that you stand in my way of loving anyone else — but I want you to stand there. You, dead, are so much better than anyone else alive.
你每次生病时都会很忧虑，你怕自己给不了我那些你认为我需要的东西。其实你根本无须忧心。就像我曾经告诉过你，我没有什么真正需求，因为跟那些需求比起来，我更深爱着你的方方面面。而现在，时间更加验证了这句话的真实性。你已无法给与我任何东西，可我依然如此爱你。你就挡在我爱上其他人的那条路上，而我希望你永远挡在那里别离开。就算你已离世，你之于我的意义也远胜过活在世上的所有人。
I know you will assure me that I am foolish and that you want me to have full happiness and don't want to be in my way. I'll bet you are surprised that I don't even have a girlfriend (except you, sweetheart) after two years. But you can't help it, darling, nor can I — I don't understand it, for I have met many girls and very nice ones and I don't want to remain alone — but in two or three meetings they all seem ashes. You only are left to me. You are real.
我知道你肯定会说我蠢，你希望我能获得百分百的幸福，并不想做拦路石，成为我的负担。我敢打赌，你肯定会很惊讶，整整两年来我就没交过女朋友（除了你，我的宝贝）。但这件事不是你我能够控制的，亲爱的，我也搞不明白，虽然我遇到过很多很好的女孩子，也不想自己一直孤零零下去，可见了两三面后，在我心里，她们的一切好像都消失殆尽。只有你，留在我的心底。只有你真实无比。
My darling wife, I do adore you. I love my wife. My wife is dead.
我亲爱的太太，我真的好爱你。我爱我太太，就算她已不在人世。
Rich.
你的里奇
PS Please excuse my not mailing this — but I don't know your new address.
另：请原谅我没有寄出这封信，我不知道你的新地址。
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